the life we are currently leading...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
Your finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little and
Sorry won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when your blind
It's better than I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right,
It's too late to fight,
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight, just a little insight
Won't make this right, it's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight,
Tonight,
Insight,
When darkness turns to light it ends tonight

How true. What a beautiful song.

They say its okay. I don't know. I can only pray.

Who asked who, I don't know.

The previous time you didn't want it, and you destroyed everything yourself. Of course I was hurt.

But now just after half a year suddenly you are considering options and all the crap.

What the fuck. Are we going to get close, and maybe you decide that you don't want it again, and the whole cycle repeats itself?

I can't be arsed anymore. Its so fucked up. Not the situation.

I am trying to ask you out soon. If my schedule and your schedule permits.

Asking is not a problem. Whether it will be through is a major one.

Though you said yes maybe something will tweak in your mind, and I am sent crashing down again.

Well maybe its just a primary school get-together, and I am really the special one.

Well, hope hope and hope. Its annoying.

I don't have the courage honestly. The cons outweigh the pros. And I really dreamt about what happened. I woke up feeling dejected and alone, like a rose...

Everytime I talk I have to consider if this is something that will screw me up. Some little things that you do ultimately screw me up.

Well, just to let you know this screwed me up badly.