Friday, September 26, 2008
YEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Erm my prelim results are back.
My E maths improved from a B3 to an A2, while my A maths jumped from c5 to A2.
So that means 2 distinctions for maths :D
My chem improved from D7 to C5, Biology d7 to C6. I failed both during prelim one, because of those damn moderations.
My Higher Chinese increased from a C6 to B3.
These are the positives.
My English dropped a grade, from A2 to B3
My Geography is surprisingly better than combined humans. But my Geography dropped from a B3 to an C5. My combined humans was C6.
I think I am going to poly, so my L1R4 should be 17, including a B3 in English.
Seriously 17 points is going to get me a job in the city area, like Shenton Way, maybe as a toilet cleaner.
Then I shall clear up peoples' pee and make the toilet SPAKRING KLEAN.
I calculated my best results over the past 2 years.
A2 for English (prelim 1)
A2 for E maths (prelim 2)
A2 for A maths (prelim 2)
A2 for Chemistry (sec 3 EOY)
A1 for Geography (sec 3 EOY)
So its bloody 9 points for L1R4. God knows if I am gonna make it.
But I won't care now. I am going to pia books for the rest of the time I left, and hopefully I can do well.
Hopefully I do my part, and I will get what I want.
These few days have been, well shitty. When my day is shitty, its never about results, its never about money or food. Although I like food and I ask what Fattyfel eats every lunch.
Have I been thinking too much?
I don't know now. Seriously I am getting very vexed and especially fucked up on Thursday. Maybe Wednesday wasn't to my liking as well. Anyway I think I forget which day I am pissed, but anyway its either Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday.
After all that stuff, obviously that shouldn't be happening. At least I thought, I wouldn't do that if I had been told of those stuff. You do that to me, but not him.
And I saw some stuff that made me wonder. Heard stuff too.
But I don't get why so many calls and smses are not replied. And 2 were picked up by other people.
No reply no nothing.
In fact I think this is a huge farce. Is it a bloody big test? But even if this is a well worked out plot there are also positive and negative sides of it.
Some told me to be careful. Some told me to stop. Some told me to go for it. Some said I am gullible, and I trust too easily. Its either I die terribly, or I succeed like hell. I hope its the latter.
I don't like liars. I want confirmation and assurance.
Until that happens, I will be in a very insecure situation where everything just sucks.
I am sensitive, I am pessimistic, and I think anyhow. I rather prepare myself for disappointment, if its positive maybe I will be happy until I jump and hit the ceiling, if its bad I might jump.
Joking. I mean, I will not be so disappointed since I have already so called, "expected" what will happen.
But every time things will turn out better, maybe partly because I had thought too pessimistically.
I hope this time everything will be alright.
I talked to TBT. What he said enlightened me, and we are pretty much on the same boat. Maybe Derek too.
So now I am gonna concentrate on my studies, and pia for O levels. I don't wanna wash toilet bowls.
I am not going to do anything. However if you smile at me, I will still smile back. If you look at me I will still look at you. If you talk to me I will still talk to you.
Right now I am a bit tired of thinking too much. I am gonna think of organic compounds, electrolysis, Human Geography, and maybe reproduction in man. Okay just joking.
Until O levels are over I am not doing anything.
I had thought it over. First priority is studies.
I prayed to God to hope for everything is alright and well. Hopefully he can grant what I asked for. Hopefully in future I may think that this is laughable, for I had thought too much.
I don't know why I am praying to God, but well.
Now I have 9 wives. Chem, Biology, A maths, E maths, History Elective, Geography, English, Higher Chinese, Social Studies.
I am gonna concentrate on them. No distractions for the final lap.
Maybe after that I will be free, and I can do whatever I like.
So now I am going to stay at the school library to revise my work, and pia books everyday.
My life from now onwards will be about books. Till then, I have to believe.
P.S Walao I had to hold on to my pee to type out this inspirational post.
